Happy Mother's Day!

It has been 2 years since we were last able to tell you Happy Mother's Day and that sly smile creep across your face. You always said we shouldn't have brought you anything but I think deep down you knew that whatever you even mentioned would be a cool thing to have you would get! I think you enjoyed being spoiled! But it was fine with us...whatever you wanted we wanted you to have. Each year you wanted new flowers for your birthday and Mother's Day, each year you got it. We would all go pick out the most colorful flowers and spend half the day planting and watering under your watchful eye. Ironically something's never change...I think dad has it programmed in him to get flowers around this time because last weekend we were planting flowers! I hope you like them.

As many questions that I have for you, days like today makes me realize that when I do see you again  all I want to do is say happy Mother's Day for all the years we missed. I know you couldn't be happier however, being up in heaven healthy and whole, reunited with your mom and your grandma. So that brings comfort to my rough days but I still get jealous and selfish sometimes. I want you here. I struggle to answer questions I know you would breeze through, I stumble trying to support someone through a tough time, and a totally drop the ball when it comes to reading things before they happen. You had a touch, a knack for things that is greatly missed. Things are different and they never will be the same...we have had to find a new "normal" without you. I hate to even call it normal because without you it isn't normal but the experts say you have to find a new normal so that's what we are doing lol.

You know my favorite saying is "Isn't it funny how life pushes us to grow even when we aren't ready" while these last few years have taught me that it isn't just funny it is hilarious. I know you are looking down and just shaking your head sometimes. You probably told God you don't know where my attitude came from and He just laughs cause He knows exactly where...from you and Mrs. Dorothy Carroll!! Lol...I can lecture almost as good as you and I got that cuss you out with a smile down, that is all the Carroll's coming out! But I also got your love and compassion, I got your drive, dedication, and strength. I am glad that I am learning how to balance it all...slowly.

Anyway way mom as I embrace this new normal I just really want to say Happy Mother's Day! We love and miss you. I hope that as you look down on us you are smiling and proud of the individuals we have become.

Oh yeah today is Grandma Jennings' birthday can you give her a kiss from us?!?!

:-)